I'm depressed!!

I always seem to get down in the evenings. Doesn't seem to happen as much during the day, just at night. Maybe it's because the reality of not having someone to snuggle up to in bed finally gets to me at the end of the day. Maybe it's something else completely...chemical imbalance, seasonal affective disorder or something like that. ;)

Whatever it is, I know it's not nice. And it's especially not nice on Valentine's Day. The fates seem intent on keeping me and my beloved apart for as long as possible. There are absolutely no jobs upstate for a dietitian and no librarian positions down here in the city. DAMMIT!!!

I know in the grand scheme of things my life could be a lot worse but is it really so much to ask to be near my soulmate?! Answer me that, fate!!!

*incoherent grumbling* Don't mind me, just bitchy and missing mi amor, not a good combination!! Although I do have to count my blessings. This is the first Valentines Day that I've had someone to call my own (don't know if I should count last year as we were still in the very beginning stages of our relationship and had only met each other face to face once). And I couldn't be happier. I seriously don't know what I would do without my soulmate. Adrift in a sea of depression and uncertainly most likely. But she's my port in the storm and my lighthouse leading me home safely.

Luckily, I only have 2 more days to wait until I see my Miss D again. Yay!!!